during the last days of school, jj had been going to bed later and later. finally, we let go and stopped trying to stay up to see her into bed. fine. we have to take care of ourselves. that was another one of those inflection points we noted. no more quiet time after the child is asleep. this week there is no school and no camp and i have given up trying to get her up before noon.
monday and tuesday we had promised to let her sleep as long as she wanted. it was her first days off. after that, i decided to continue to a degree. i would not stress too much about it.
go with the flow. i need to do my own things and not spend so much energy trying to get her to keep MY schedule. anyway, she IS a teenager and we know that they need more sleep. i remember the pleasure of sleeping really late. still it is hard to let go totally. i think as one gets older, time becomes more precious. we know that the minutes slip away into hours into days into years. so it bothers me. it feels wasteful, the same feeling as throwing away money. it is throwing away time. the mornings are gone. today we needed to get serious about packing our stuff. we are moving on friday. i had been packing things little by little and we don’t have too much stuff but i was afraid of being too relaxed. one always has much more than one thinks.
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